Steady and Sure

 

 

A man’s spirit will endure sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?
— Proverbs 18:14

In the dark moments when I am most vulnerable there’s a battle to believe I'm not alone. It's an act of defiance to give voice to my fears and yearnings and bring them before the Lord. It can feel like I'm talking to the walls. “Are you really there God? Do you see the state we're in? Why have you left us in the valley for so long? Do you care at all? Why have you brought us here? Where is the way out? When will you lead us to it?”

I am comforted that I am not the only one who has struggled this way.

Awake! Why are you sleeping, O Lord? Rouse yourself! Do not reject us forever! Why do you hide your face? Why do you forget our affliction and oppression? For our soul is bowed down to the dust; our belly clings to the ground. Rise up; come to our help! Redeem us for the sake of your steadfast love!
— Psalm 44:23-26

His steadfast love endures my doubts and casts out my fears. He sees my pain. He sees yours too. He is not far off and He is not ambivalent towards our suffering. He groans as we groan. He weeps as we weep. He whispers of hope as we despair. He is not intimidated by our anger and invites an honest dialogue. Pour out your heart to him, whatever is within. He can take it, and He can make it beautiful.

He is steady and sure, our firm foundation as we navigate the sorrows and the doubts and fears that come with them.

if we are faithless, he remains faithful - for he cannot deny himself.
— 2 Timothy 2:13